Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Still Waiting

Yesterday we received an update from our adoption agency....29 months from LID is the expected delay! Ouch. When we began the process the wait was 6-9 month......
Really don't know what to make of this. It is even harder for DH. He's not used to "disappointments" such as this. I am at a loss as to what to even think. I ask myself if we should even continue in this program? Yesterday we figured out that at this rate, we wouldn't be getting our referral until May of next year. It is inconceivable to me really-I just cannot fathom waiting that long....

sound frustrated don't I? I have coped in the past because I just put it out of my mind and go on about my daily life, but now it's becoming harder and harder to do that.
Mother's day is around the corner and soon it will be father's day-I've experienced being a parent, but what about O? He really is feeling it! I wish there was something I could DO, this process seems so unfair.

Monday, May 5, 2008


Today I realized that I do not write about what I do on a daily basis....my teaching. I find that I am very very tired lately. I know that it is the end of the year, and many of the students I teach (seniors) are already "out the door" at least mentally. I cannot believe sometimes how much energy I put out daily just to maintain my student's attention! This is even more annoying when I hear comments-many times from members of my own family!- like "oh, you have it easy...all you do is sit at your desk all day, or you have the best hours! you only work half a day and get three months off a year!, or teachers don't really work....BAH HUMBUG! I am on my feet from the moment the first bell rings to the end of the day. If I'm lucky I get to sit to eat lunch...lately I've been eating while doing administrative "stuff" Yeah, no one tells you about the mountains of paper work! Don't get me wrong, I LOVE what I do. I thoroughly enjoy my subject area: English, and I have a passion for reaching my students-I'm just plain old TIRED! No wonder we have the summer off! If we didn't then we'd all burn out. By the way....it is NOT three months-those days are long over; at least they are in the state of Florida. We end on the beginning of June and report back beginning of August. I'll take it! I love it! However; most of the time I'm preparing for next year-trying to come up with new and innovative techniques for reaching my students or taking classes to keep up with new "trends."

Sunday, May 4, 2008


Princess Sam from the Waiting for a Fairytale blog passed away on Friday. I had been checking on her daily always expecting that the next post would be something to the effect of "sorry I've been away...but....I GOT MY LUNGS!!!...instead, one of her friends posted the news of her death. I didn't realize I would be so affected by her death. As I thought about all of the people who are going through this struggle, I realized how incredibly lucky I am. My thoughts go out to Sam's family and friends...and to J-whom she loved. It has to be an incredibly difficult time for them.